Take a breath!! I’M NOT PREGNANT. 🙂 There IS expectation for a new birth about to take place, however, as I’m coming out of a year+ transitional period of waiting on God to reveal what this next season of life will bring. One of the beautiful aspects of growing older is the increasing ability to look back and celebrate the many little beginnings and endings we experience throughout our lifetime. While losses are extremely painful at the time, they actually produce a fertile soil for a healthier new life to emerge.
I’m grateful that this particular transition, while lengthy, didn’t take me into the desert place in my thinking. Never did I feel alone, dry, or barren (purposeless). I just knew I was waiting. On the other hand, if we continue the pregnancy analogy, I also didn’t go through the early stages–neither the negative morning sickness, nor the joys of experiencing the internal “butterflies” of baby’s first movements. Instead, I woke up today realizing I’ve jumped right to the end– into the last trimester and FULL of hope! To add to the anticipation, I can also see that there was nothing accidental about the timing. Both of my sons were born in August; especially this year as each one reaches a significant milestone, all of the special memories of their births have come flooding back. Doesn’t our Father think of everything? 🙂
Though two decades have passed since my sons were born, with fine detail I could describe the physical changes my body went through in the weeks before, and the emotional growth my husband and I both experienced with the expanded capacity to love these babies with an intensity we had never imagined.
Now as my ministry prepares once more to give birth to You Go Girl! Special Events for Women, we find ourselves in labor pains of another sort as we eagerly look forward to the arrival. Through the years God has patiently seen us through recovery and insecurities, set-backs and victories as He has S-T-R-E-T-C-H-E-D us beyond our comfort zones. Now with a wonderful new Board of Directors, we are actively pursuing our calling through an exciting but challenging intellectual labor. Let’s be real: it would be a very rare performer who also has gifts in writing, teaching, event planning, marketing, and fundraising!
Then there’s the spiritual warfare… When our mission is all about helping women connect with others in their own community, offering real hope and encouragement to get “unstuck” and to go boldly forward, is it any wonder the enemy would want us to fail? Yes, the physical ailments, financial concerns, relational difficulties, and psychological stress coming against our team are further confirmation we are on the right track. But make no mistake, we’re trusting in our Heavenly Father, and we will keep “pushing through the pain”.
No longer simply waiting for a sign but now expecting a new beginning, I’m really excited about the coming season… even if it means sleepless nights and possible mood swings :-).